Against the Silences to Come                           
fr david mitchell                                                  
She is holding the faded blue chapbook in her
hand
looking at herself
looking at herself
she has carried it across the sea
                                                   &
back again
                                                                        
across the sea    
                                                   
& back again
& she didn't know why
                                      until now.
                                                      
The return of the ampersand.
Poets used ampersands back then 
he did
& so did Ron Loewinsohn
who wrote AGAINST
THE SILENCES TO COME
Copyright © 1965 –
Four Seasons Foundation
Distributed by City
Lights Books
FOR JOAN
*
There is news of him.
                                   There is
news to hand.
                                                                       
News has come in. 
There is news of the poet who gave her 
AGAINST THE
SILENCES TO COME                                     
in the kitchen of his flat in
                                            -
as the taxi driver quipped -
                                                    
Sentimental Road.
Where he gave birth to a typewriter
          while the refrigerator was 'making
cold'.
His surname is written
                                     on the
buffer page
                                                                   
& the ancient price
& below
her name.
*
He is moored in a nursing home in Sydney
incapable of speech
silent
his hand speaks for
him
on the page
she finds
              
she is not sorry for him
                                                    
has no pity
                                                                       she
finds
                                                                                     
in fact
                                     she has
been furious with him
from since then until now
since he picked her
up & dropped her
all in one night.
*
He is sitting in the Babel Cafe
                                                    
waiting for his wife & daughter
to dock tomorrow
                              - 'on the
waterfront' -
he has bought a
painting
for his daughter's
room
it's mostly pink.
Now
        she
supposes 
                             that he was
drunk.                                                         
                                                           
That habitual drunkeness 
                                                      
that comes across like charm
                            up to a certain
point.
Tomorrow doesn't count.
                                         From
tomorrow he would not ...
but tonight
once more for luck.
She supposes that she supposed
                                                   
that she was safe because
- 'I write poetry
too.'
*
& yet the gift. 
                      I find on the last page
of his famous book
                     'silences
                    to
                         come?'
I find a grief
                     a small grief
                                          a
small grief like a sharp stone in my smart shoe 
fr him.
 
 

