Your Mother, My Daughter, And You, Her Son
You don't look like
anyone I know, and never have.
But your mother was
the same, she always confused me.
She arrived in a
hectic rush, as did you, and like you had
set up a beachhead,
taken a foothold, in a handy uterus,
uninvited and yet
adamant, so all a mother can do is submit.
Both of you loved
the rock of a horse cantering underneath.
You are more like
your mother than anyone else.
For one moment on
the 3D pic they took of you in utero
you were the image
of your father, your mother tells me
babies do that
because fathers need to know, they lack
confidence. Once the
dad is safely hooked the child can
express their own
unique understanding of the ancestors.
Nobody ever said
babies lacked the rat cunning to live.
Perhaps you are like
me and I don’t recognise myself.
Who are you like? I
need to pin you to the family tree.
From time to time I
catch a facsimile of the sweet smile
a maternal
great-uncle would deliver as he bent to press
an oddfellow into my
palm. But he was stone-cold bald
and we don’t want
that. Or the way you run to enlarge
the circle to
include everyone puts me in mind of what
my father would have
done. Sometimes, because I am
getting old, I call
you the same name that I gave my son.
As if I can reclaim
him, pop him back into the stroller,
and out into the
beautiful morning and down to the shops.
Not that you are at
all like him. I do know your name.
No one else, to my
knowledge, has been called Nicholas.
The line branches
back to the beginning of everything,
there is no one
called Nicholas. That I know of. It’s new.
I wonder how many
people in the Antipodes read New Welsh Review.
I'm guessing it's
not very many. Anyway, I was asked to draw attention
to the issue my poem
was in, and this seemed the best way to do it.
The poem came about
because I was talking to a friend on facebook
and she said that
grandparenting was such a vital part of many people's
lives, but that one
seemed to rarely come upon poems about the role.
And I thought –
yeah! I haven't written about it.
https://www.newwelshreview.com/article.php?id=752
It's lovely. Thanks for sharing that Jennifer!
ReplyDeleteI loved this Jennifer! Nice to read you again.
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